Woke up and was a deer.

Getting pumped for life again!

I decided that to better my chances of getting any of these job I want, I needed to relocate to somewhere more central, and upon searching through gumtree I have found what might be PERFECT! I’m gonna view it on Tuesday. Gonna need to speak to my landlord about the contract I’m under cause I don’t know how to go about getting out of that one…

I also handed out more CVs today and did a whole lot more job hunting. I’m so unhappy where I work right now, I’m even thinking about leaving without finding a new job first. My mum seemed to think it wasn’t such a bad idea, cause then I’d have all my free time available to look for something, and that even stacking shelves at Tesco would be better than what I’m doing & said she’d be happy to support me rent-wise until I could find something. My Mum is such a wonderful human, it almost makes me weepy.

Lastly, this Thursday I’m trying out for a band! They want a synth player and have invited me along to their rehearsal on Thursday! Gosh everything is just looking up. I’m so happy for the support i’ve had lately from my Mom, Sophie and Mike. All wonderful humans.

I need to meet more people

in the general Bristol area. I have no one at work who I share like, ANYTHING in common with, and the people I work with are the only people I really see, and the only other people I see are my housemates and I’m pretty sure they now hate me for asking them to clean their mess. Obviously Sophie being the exception to this rule. 

At first living here in Bristol was like the coolest thing ever and then everything started changing and all the wrong things stayed the same and now everything sucks.. 

My sister is so bloody witty.

Just take a moment to bask in its beauty. Go on, indulge. What should I name it?

To-do list for today

• Get out of bed
• Eat breakfast
• scrub up
• adjust CV’s
• find somewhere I can print of CV’s
• Go into the city and hand out CV’s
• Do a bit of adventuring
• Find an AC adaptor plug
• come home
• practice synth/piano for the first time in way too long

:)

That sounds really tempting and I wish I could afford to do that >.<

Frustration.

I’m stuck working a job I hate, 9 hours a day, 5 days a week. It’s EXACTLY what I was trying not to do. Every day there, I am constantly undermined and reminded of how expendable I am, and it is honest to god breaking my spirit. I spend all week looking forward to the weekend then I’m too tired to do anything with my time off. And since my best friend moved away on Monday I don’t have much to distract me from that fact anymore. This isn’t what I moved to Bristol for, if anything I’m even further from where I wanted to be than when I lived back in Devon.

Is this what life is like? I really fucking hope not.

(via thedeer)